Sunday, December 26, 2010

Out of Place

I don't have any where I fit in.
People say "It doesn't matter if you fit in, as long as you're you." They don't say that it makes you feels so unwanted and out of place that you want to do nothing else but curl up in a ball in a corner and cry.
It sure is fun when you feel out of place with you family. No one to talk to, nothing to talk about. Feeling as though you're intruding, and being unwanted.
I hate it.
I hate it I hate it I hate it.
I don't have anywhere that I really fit in. Not even with my friends really. I'm too different, too out spoken, not smart enough, and just not belonging. I just wish that there was somehwere that I always always be accepted and liked, no matter what. I thought I had a place like that once, but I messed up, and even before that I felt out of place.
Damnit I'm almost crying.
I hate it when I cry. Because it shows that people get to me, and then they know how to get me again. And again. And again. because they know where it hurts.
What can feel even worse is trying to belong, by being yourself, and knowing that no one wants you. And hope that you'll grow out of it, that you'll find somewhere that has people that will always know what to say.
Well, RUA, HME should cheer me up. So bye.

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