God I'm such an idiot.
So I was talking to one of my friends on the bus ride home, and she says "Why don't you text that one guy you kinda like". And me, being the idiot that I am, did.
We don't have any classes together, no friends in common, completly different socila statuses, and we haven't talked since like Sadie Hawkens last year. So now he's gonna think that I'm this creepy stalker girl who has loved him ever since she first saw him.
What was I thinking? I don't stand a chance with guys, and yet I texted him. Goddamnit.
And it's not just with guys I like. Also with guys that I consider my friends. Sure, we talk. We don't hate each other. Yet they'll do just about anything to get away from me. I dont' know where it goes wrong, but it does. And it's always my fault.
Seriously depressing right now. Because on top of the boy thing, me and my mom are pissed at each other, I'm feeling really insecure, and I just don't know where to turn. My friends? I can't get a hold of them, and even if I did, what would I say? "Hey, let me talk to you for the next half an hour about stupid things that totally bore you. And when we're talking I'm going to make these insignificant things seem like they are really important to me, when really they're not." Yeah, they'd love to do that.
I'm gonna go now.
Bye.
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i actually would not mind talking. i will always be open for closure.
ReplyDeleteyou can always call or chat me. you should know that. i understand making the little things big, i do it all the time. :) just call me on my home phone cause i only get 100 min a month on my cell.
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