Sickening

My goodness it's been a while. But I have something I want to say.
You make me sick. I read your blog since the first time you dumped her, and I actually gagged a couple of times. You honestly think you're not the bad guy? Instead of listening to the 3 who agree with you, listen to the dozens that don't.
I actually feel sick to my stomach after reading what you wrote.
I can't believe that I was thinking about forgiving you and actually being your friend again. You have a twisted sense of right and wrong, and you feel like you're such a martyr, saying "I know I deserve this, yell at me, tell me who you are and what you say about me". That is, until people stop talking about it, and then turn around and say "Nvm, I'm not that bad guy".
I can't believe you. No, actually, I can, I just don't want to. I want to believe that you're not saying that,I want to believe that someone hacked into your blog and that you're actually sorry about what you did . Not saying "I deserve it" or apologizing for attention. I want to believe that the guy I was friends with for years, the guy I stuck with when everyone else turned their backs on him, is still somewhere.
But I guess not. Because the guy I miss wouldn't do that. He would be outraged that someone would put things like that out on the internet, and would comfort the poor girl who got hurt so badly. Instead, he's the one who did the hurting. And is still doing it.
I can't forgive him for that.